Quick Update

So still no monthly friend today.

I went to see Brandon at work and took him lunch. We discussed the "what if" scenario.

Turns out, he has names picked out! I was really surprised. Back when I had full blown baby fever, he was not feeling it as much. So it made me feel better. I had already come to embrace the idea. However, hearing he had names picked (and cute ones at that) made me kind of want it to be true. So now, I am trying not to get my hopes up, but I guess they already are a little bit. I mean, I left there and went to buy tests... We'll see in the morning!
Either way we will be okay. We are blessed with an adorable, happy, and healthy ( gunk is FINALLY gone) little girl. So if it is negative, and I feel it will be, we won't cry over it. It is what it is. 
God's will be done. He has a plan. Will it involve another baby? Hmmm..

Babies Are Coming!

Sooo. What I learned this weekend is:

babies are popping up everywhere.

I already knew 2 people at Brandon's work place have their SO knocked up. One being his best friend & our neighbor.

However, now I find that he has 2 cousins that are also pregnant. One is having twins & the other is pregnant with her fourth! 

Also I have a pregnant cousin. So like I said.

Babies. Are. Coming.

So as Brandon & I sit down to watch TV, every commercial is about baby things. Pregnancy test, stretch mark cream, diapers. You name it, we seen it. So he looks over at me and says, "Take a hint."

:0

What?!? Why would he say that?!?

And now... I am 3 days late...

Wouldn't that be crazy? To finally accept that it is not meant to be and then poof. We tried so long. I just got over baby fever and moved on. 

Heh.

Another day in paradise

September 1.

Happy Anniversary to us!  6 years & counting :)

Unfortunately, I am so under the weather, I could not even imagine trying to go out. It's OK though. We spent all night last night with me bundled up on the coach with a Netflix marathon.
 Ya have to cherish things you may otherwise take for granted. Especially when those memories being made are with the ones you love most.

Of course, as I mentioned last year, this was my brother's birthday. I wonder if my anniversary will always be bittersweet now.
He was a great guy. He had his problems. If anyone knew what he lived, they'd wonder how he didn't have more. I miss him & remind myself he is in a better place.

Losing a loved one is never easy. And when it feels like that person was ripped away too soon--before they reached their full potential-it sucks that much worse.

We go about life never knowing or understanding God's plan but we must know & understand that God has a plan for us all. More importantly, we must trust Him fully, put our lives in His hands daily, and love unconditionally.

 You never know what tomorrow will bring.

My cold medicine is starting to set in. It contained alcohol and amazingly, I can't handle it. Though I used to handle alcohol like it was water, I haven't drank in 6 years!
Thank God for sending my husband to help support me in my struggle & allow us to fall head over heels in the process!

Sickly Status Update

No sleep for the worried momma. Figured I' blog about it to vent.

So the doctor visit Wednesday took 5 minutes. Doctor listened to her chest and said all clear. She did prescribe Mucinex, which caused MaKenzie to start having coughing. It was productive so I thought it was a good thing.
Now her snot has turned yellow & she has a fever again.
Why has no one checked her or ran tests on her for anything? The doctor seemed as baffled as I was yet could only give me guesses. I am not paying for "probably" this or that. Google is great for that. I want a diagnosis dang it! Tell me what she has & how to make it better!!!
Right now, she is sleeping better than she has in a while. Slight comfort coming to me seeing her sleep peacefully.

ER Visit

Last night was scary bad.
MaKenzie woke up not being able to breathe. She couldn't talk & was drooling from not swallowing saliva.
I needed a doctor!
 But, wait. It's midnight. Where on earth do I go? An experienced mover & relocater would have had the place scoped out. Or saved to the GPS. Not me.. I froze trying to find the address to put it in. My husband, thank God, was home & knocked on his friend's door to ask. He said, "let me just ride with you." And so he did, which was great because the hospital here is in a weird spot.
True friends go with their friends to the ER when a child is sick. ;) So thankful he is our neighbor.
Anyway, by the top we got there she was almost normal. By the time she seen the respiratory therapist, she looked like nothing had ever happened. Her lungs & chest were fine. No fever.
Another doctor came in to check throat, nose, and ears. Fine.
What in the world. I was having a heart attack over nothing. But it sure as heck seemed like something at that time so, no regrets.
Just more doctor bills. Worth it for the peace of mind though.
Until...
5 am rolls around & same exact thing happens. This time she recovered a lot faster.
Plopped her up on the couch. Turned on Avengers on Netflix. She was back out before an episode ended.
She has an appointment with a pediatrician @ 4. Probably won't find out what caused it but prevention tips would be nice. Anything to help her get better is worth it.
The thing worse than seeing your child suffer is being helpless to stop it.
That's what I feel right now. Praying for good news & a healthy child.

MaKenzie's first day of kindergarten

                      August 1, 2013

MaKenzie had been sick all weekend long. Not miserable enough to stay in bed & do nothing. She has been active and perfectly normal, but she has had a fever so she can't really enjoy her weekend off.
It baffled me why she would get a fever spike with no symptoms. Then I got concerned and called the after hours nurse. She asked questions and said everything seemed fine & that if it didn't clear up in 3 days to take her to the hospital.
As much as she made me feel better, I still have no clue why my baby is sick & that drives me crazy! I keep checking on her to make sure she has drink or isn't too hot/cold, isn't hurting, or developed some new symptom. All I keep getting is, "I'm fine, Momma!" She is annoyed by me helicoptering her because she is used to having a sense of independence.  I just really don't like her being sick and not being able to cure her.
I will keep her home from school, which she will not like, to monitor her on whether or not to take her to the doctor.
Praying my daughter gets better.
 XOXO