2 Pink Lines

Quick Update

So still no monthly friend today.

I went to see Brandon at work and took him lunch. We discussed the "what if" scenario.

Turns out, he has names picked out! I was really surprised. Back when I had full blown baby fever, he was not feeling it as much. So it made me feel better. I had already come to embrace the idea. However, hearing he had names picked (and cute ones at that) made me kind of want it to be true. So now, I am trying not to get my hopes up, but I guess they already are a little bit. I mean, I left there and went to buy tests... We'll see in the morning!
Either way we will be okay. We are blessed with an adorable, happy, and healthy ( gunk is FINALLY gone) little girl. So if it is negative, and I feel it will be, we won't cry over it. It is what it is. 
God's will be done. He has a plan. Will it involve another baby? Hmmm..

Babies Are Coming!

Sooo. What I learned this weekend is:

babies are popping up everywhere.

I already knew 2 people at Brandon's work place have their SO knocked up. One being his best friend & our neighbor.

However, now I find that he has 2 cousins that are also pregnant. One is having twins & the other is pregnant with her fourth! 

Also I have a pregnant cousin. So like I said.

Babies. Are. Coming.

So as Brandon & I sit down to watch TV, every commercial is about baby things. Pregnancy test, stretch mark cream, diapers. You name it, we seen it. So he looks over at me and says, "Take a hint."

:0

What?!? Why would he say that?!?

And now... I am 3 days late...

Wouldn't that be crazy? To finally accept that it is not meant to be and then poof. We tried so long. I just got over baby fever and moved on. 

Heh.

Another day in paradise

September 1.

Happy Anniversary to us!  6 years & counting :)

Unfortunately, I am so under the weather, I could not even imagine trying to go out. It's OK though. We spent all night last night with me bundled up on the coach with a Netflix marathon.
 Ya have to cherish things you may otherwise take for granted. Especially when those memories being made are with the ones you love most.

Of course, as I mentioned last year, this was my brother's birthday. I wonder if my anniversary will always be bittersweet now.
He was a great guy. He had his problems. If anyone knew what he lived, they'd wonder how he didn't have more. I miss him & remind myself he is in a better place.

Losing a loved one is never easy. And when it feels like that person was ripped away too soon--before they reached their full potential-it sucks that much worse.

We go about life never knowing or understanding God's plan but we must know & understand that God has a plan for us all. More importantly, we must trust Him fully, put our lives in His hands daily, and love unconditionally.

 You never know what tomorrow will bring.

My cold medicine is starting to set in. It contained alcohol and amazingly, I can't handle it. Though I used to handle alcohol like it was water, I haven't drank in 6 years!
Thank God for sending my husband to help support me in my struggle & allow us to fall head over heels in the process!