March 17, 2011

We lost a beautiful woman today--inside and out. A huge part of our family is gone. I just keep thinking how holidays will be empty.
I also am dwelling on the fact that my child was never given the chance to know her.
All my memories I have with her....and my child will have none...

NaNa, I know you were hurting & tired of it all. I know it is selfish to wish you could have stayed on longer. I just wish I had the chance to tell you how sorry I am for not being a better granddaughter in recent times. Letting my life & putting things before coming to see you. Saturday, we said we'd fix that. Thursday. You're gone. I so wish I could change time, but most of all, I wish you hadn't had to go through all this at all.

I miss you. We all miss you & will think of you always.

Ashley



When everything in life is seemingly perfect, expect someone to come along and ruin it. 'Cuz that's just how people are. Only my mama bringing the drama though so I'm not letting it get me down. Just sucks for my baby girl who loves her grandparents. Not like they are people for her to be around anyway, but she doesn't understand things yet :(

Bleh..

Back to the good things in life. Things that make me happy :)

My baby! K, So maybe she isn't a baby anymore, in fact, she is growing up way too fast. Using the potty these days & that makes me VERY happy! She is wild & crazy like no other child I've ever seen. Yet, she has a sweet, tender side that comes out from time to time. I think her not being that way all the time only makes those random lovey-dovey moments all that much more special & sweet.

My handsome hubby! Prince charming on a white horse to come rescue his awaiting damsel in distress? maybe not so much. I did live in a hellish environment & thought of him everyday until he came back into my life, and introduced me to God. I'd take saving my soul from an eternity of burning Hell over fighting a dragon to rescue me from a tower any day. lol.

Honestly though, I never really knew things could be like this. The whole fall in love all over again every day type of love. That, ladies & gentlemen, is real.

I remember posting the whole "marriage isn't perfect" post in the past. Of course things aren't 100% perfect 100% of the time, but I love my life. I think so many people were shocked when I threw away a scholarship to college to be a wife and eventually mother. Nothing I think of that I could have done in life could I imagine being as happy as I am now.

Signing off for the night.

God Bless.

Ashley

Totally forgot I took this picture.